apartment searches suck...

So... i am apartment hunting. actually i think (hope) that I've found one. Its small (ok - tiny), and i can still barely afford it. and i'm honestly scared shitless. Its been 3 years since ive had my own place, and i'm not really sure i can do it... I've been living with friends and family for several years, and i'm not sure i can be disiplined enough with my money to make this work. And the scariest part is i got 2 lil monsters who r depending on me. On the other hand, I cant wait to have my own place and not to be living under anyone else's rules. i truly appreciate EVERYTHING all my friends and family have done for me over the years, but its definitely past time. there are lots of hurdles left to jump, the biggest one being daycare for my kids since i work nightshift and dont wanna leave them on their own. yes theyre old enough (barely). but i still dont like it. so many issues, I know the answers are there, just gotta figure them out.. ugh